When there is none of me... There is more of you.

God how long.. How long must this heart have to break. Have to hurt. Have to live in fear. God where are you. Do you know and understand my aching heart. How badly I want to be free. How much I want to be justified. How much I want others to see. How much I want especially one to see. When do you break through. I have tried to get out of the way. And I've tried to be there. Jesus help me. I don't know how to make him see my heart. I don't know how to do anything right anymore. God I mess up so so much and I admit that. God I want you. I want more of you. I want more of who you are and less of me. I'm so scared of me. There is none of me left and I crave and so desire you to come and fill me. Come and fill me god. Come and fill me with your life. Your love. Your strength. God come and fill me wholly with you. Let this be something of great glory to you. From glory to glory. I don't wana be fake anymore. I don't wana be empty anymore. I don't want to be afraid anymore. God I simply want so much more of you. I want to be a reflection of you and who you are. In a way unlike any other. God I want my love for you and my relationship with you to literally pour out to break strongholds just by me being me through and with you. I don't feel called to casts out demons by screaming at people but I feel led to love people with your love and grace and mercy and by such an outpouring of you, people will want more of you. Jesus.... Be the you in me that you want the world to see.