Breakdown

Wow. God.
Help

I don't know where to start but I know the pressure is on BIG time. I need help. I need you. I'm hurting something fierce in some areas of my heart. I'm seeing that I'm very very resentful lately of a lot of people. Angry. So much anger. So much frustration. I feel like I have pussy footed around for so long trying to make everyone happy. And frankly I'm sick of it. It really doesn't matter bc in the end you get slapped anyway. No one appreciates it. The support. The encouragement. You are left wondering why someone says or does something so hurtful. After all the time of trying to love support encourage uplift and do what you thought was right. God I feel so much pressure. So many areas. Family. Relationships. Work. Church. Personally. I just want to explode constantly. What is happening in me? I don't like it. AT ALL. I need help. I need your eyes. I need your grace and mercy. I need to know you. I need to depend on you. Yet I don't even know how right now. God I'm hurting so bad inside. What's going on? Can you help calm my anxious heart?